First Suicide Attempt

Laura brought me a DNA test -2020 Laura (a close friend of mine) brought me a DNA test -2020 in 2007, after years of searching , I finally met my namesake and mothers husband. The Man Named as my father on my birth certificate my mother died, by her own hand, when I was 8 years old. She Took with her, many secrets and unanswered questions. He welcomed me into his heart, his life, his family. Something didn't feel right to me? I couldn't shake the feeling that this situation is not true. i pushed for us to take a DNA test. it came back as a negative result. my world shattered that day. I'd lost much more than one person, one dream, one identity, on perspective on the beginnings of my life That Day I Wanted To Die - that day I Took an overdose - That day I was medically dead for 17 mins - that day the medical staff worked and worked so hard to keep my body alive - that day I experienced a NDE That day I was angry , disgusted, afraid, unsure, lost... Today - Has that been a year ?! No way! This gift means so much to me Laura Jessica 💯❤️💯 It brought me peace of mind, gave closure to , what was for all involved, an awful situation And gave to me, definitively, the information that I needed ♾️🙏 Whilst I can't go back and change the sequence of events in 2007 or take away the hurt and sadness I caused, I can love you all harder ❤️❤️ :'( The memories of 2007 still make me emotional, sad and "devastated" - not because I didn't get what I wanted - because of how many people were effected, negatively. :( 💔💔😥😢 I can move forward now. ☯️❤️ I Love all of you that have stood by me since the "incidents" that could have ended so badly on 13th July 2007 🙏☯️♾️❤️ It was not my time ❤️ I'm so glad and thankful for that 🕯️☯️❤️ And I am blessed to have been given another chance at life ❤️❤️ And now I can prove that I am a Celtic warrior, robust, hardy and genetically designed to inhabit much much colder climates! 🌀🌬️ ☃️⛄❄️ up Has that been a year ?! No way! This gift means so much to me Laura Jessica 💯❤️💯 It brought me peace of mind, gave closure to , what was for all involved, an awful situation And gave to me, definitively, the information that I needed ♾️🙏 Whilst I can't go back and change the sequence of events in 2007 or take away the hurt and sadness I caused, I can love you all harder ❤️❤️ :'( The memories of 2007 still make me emotional, sad and "devastated" - not because I didn't get what I wanted - because of how many people were effected, negatively. :( 💔💔😥😢 I can move forward now. ☯️❤️ I Love all of you that have stood by me since the "incidents" that could have ended so badly on 13th July 2007 🙏☯️♾️❤️ It was not my time ❤️ I'm so glad and thankful for that 🕯️☯️❤️ And I am blessed to have been given another chance at life ❤️❤️ And now I can prove that I am a Celtic warrior, robust, hardy and genetically designed to inhabit much much colder climates! 🌀🌬️ ☃️⛄❄️